Should’ve

I’m reflecting back on how many times in my life I’ve said to myself that I should've said this or done that.

As a person with a disability, I see life as a revolving door of change and uncertainty, and I don't like this. My self-doubt feeds into my fear of abandonment.

Yes, even though I have fears (too many to write about), I’ve learned that you need to lean into those fears before they will get better. I strongly believe this.

For me, this has been a season of should've and fear, but life goes on. Don’t let your self-doubt and the should’ve ruin your life.

The only way it will get better is to change things. Don’t wallow in your stuff. Get up and do something about it.

Change starts with you, and with change, the should've tape that’s in your head will go away. That’s the only way things will change, if you lean into them.